It seems it’s about time to follow my own positive, ambitious outlook on life that is clearly depicted in my adventurous posts below.
These past several months in Denver have had me on an emotional rollercoaster. Going through a confusing breakup with a long-term partner and friend, continuing to adjust to the realities of adulthood, and doubting my career and other life choices, have been a lot to take on. I say this not to depress anyone, but to make it clear that along with any rosy adventures, we still all have to deal with thorns. And that’s ok. Because it’s all part of the journey.
Since breaking up with my ex, someone who I was excited to share this chapter of my life with, I have been thinking a lot about why I’m here in Denver and if it is right for me or if it was just right for us. It is a question I live with constantly but for now, I think it is too soon to tell. I love my adventures here and cherish all the amazing times I’ve had in the mountains and all the wonderful people I’ve met, but with those incredible adventures has also come a lot of internal struggle. I keep feeling as if I can do more, be more and create more – yet haven’t found the opportunities to do so. I am just beginning to apply to new jobs that I feel align better with who I am and what I want to do so of course things can work out, but I think it’s always important to question where we’re at and keep ourselves open to endless possibilities.
Despite the struggles I’ve been experiencing, I am finally at a place where I am ready to be me and do me without worrying about the past, how I got here or what I’m doing compared to others. The last time I was single I was a junior in college and thought I had life figured out – man was I wrong. I’ve never been one to overly plan my future, but in many ways I think I thought I’d already found the wisdom to live a great life. And I have so far. But recently I’ve also been learning how much I didn’t know and have had to pick back up where I left off on my personal growth as a single person four years ago. Now that I’m a full-fledged adult with a romantic relationship and incredible, life-changing adventures behind me, I’ve been forced to step back and re-evaluate where I see myself going from here. It’s a tough question but I think taking the time to work with yourself to find the answer is the best way to get to where you are going.
Life is an adventure and can consist of endless possibilities, places and people, but it still requires a lot of effort, thought and diligence. The hikes, camping weekends and trips to Cuba, Europe, etc. have been great but one of the most important trips you can take is internally too. And that is something I am finally going to take the time to work on.