Orlando, Florida, USA
Limbo – what a rough place to be.
And yet many of us 20-somethings and especially recent graduates find ourselves stuck in it at some point, no matter what we try to do to prevent it. It’s just part of the process, as we have to tell ourselves for our own self-confidence and sanity.
Since finishing my temporary job with Heart of Florida United Way, which I refused to accept a permanent position for because it wasn’t what or where I wanted, unemployment has had its fair share of highs and lows. The uncertainty certainly does drive me crazy at times but I find comfort in the couple of job prospects I’ve been interviewing for and the activities I enjoy that make the days pass.
“But what happens if those don’t work out?”, I keep wondering. Should I be applying to backups to fill all this free time? Or should I wait it out and take it step by step? So far, I’ve opted for the latter but of course I get anxious about that decision on the daily.
What keeps me sane during this uncertain, confusing time in my life?
Healthy food, exercise, friends, family and the faith that if I take it step by step, it will all work out eventually.
Do I just want to find another Au Pair job and take off to another country some days? Or find another place to volunteer and just go for it? Heck yeah! It can be hard as hell adjusting to this rat race of a country and realizing that the next life step I am planning could lead me to hours upon end at a desk instead of to a couple of a cute kids and beautiful beaches. But there comes a time where you feel you need to be responsible – for your personal finances, direction, adulthood, etc. – and I guess that’s where I am now. Maybe I will feel differently in a year or two and decide to ditch it all again (I mean who knows), but for now I am open to and excited for the chance to find my new city, settle into a new job that is meaningful to me, create new friendships and plan new adventures. It may not be Australia or the mountains of Northern Thailand but I’m trying to give America its chance at finding harmony with my adventurous, celebratory and meaningful outlook on life.
So what does my “limbo” look like?
It’s a lot of scrapbooking, random writing, bike rides, random jobs people ask of me, volunteering, occasional job hunting tasks, daily exercise (yoga on the best days), errands with my retired mother, Stranger Things viewings with my grandmother, and some fun outings and celebrations with family and friends sprinkled in there.
As the wait continues (hopefully for not much longer) for the answer I need to either start packing and heading west, or buckle down on more job hunting, I remain calm with the idea that “figuring it out” isn’t failing, it’s life. I’ve been reminded by so many people that there will always be something to figure out in life so finding your inner peace (as cliche as it is) and keeping what makes you happiest close, is what’s most important. There’s no point in tearing yourself down or competing with the next guy because it’s figuring out your life, with positivity at practice, and toward your vision that will lead you to your version of success. At least that’s what I think…
So shoutout to all my limbo-ers or ex-limbo-ers who get me! And here’s to life! Stay tuned.